Basia Unleashed

If you want someone to over-analyse something, you know turn something really rather irrelevant into some kind of big-haired spangly cosmiverse drama, I’m your girl. To whit, my conversation today with the Taoist over a someone I care about. A lot. I mean, this one, soul mate stuff. In my head anyway. Or maybe it’s just my pants. From now on, he will be known as Himself as to give away his name would cause all kinds of hoopla. Believe me.

Anyone who knows me will know that it is a rare moment that I am rendered speechless. A Kodak moment as some wag once said to me. So trying to explain to the Taoist the nature of Himself and our relationship rendered me tongue tied. And now dear reader, I must confess all these feelings are unrequited to a certain degree, yet he keeps me hanging on. He’s contrary, he’s secretive, he’s weird, he’s funny, he’s clever, he’s me as a boy. I will go to NZ and get over him. I will write to him: I AM OVER YOU. He will write, when were you under me? And I will fall all over again…

Me as a boy. Not the slightest bit vain, said the Taoist. And I recalled a six year old child once telling me I was vain. Out of the mouths of babies, said the Taoist, as the mouths of babes are something else.

Why can’t they all be like you, Taoist?

Soul mates. I used to think we had only one for each of us. I used to think we chose our soul mates and they didn’t have to be lovers either. I used to think a lot of things. Is it possible you can be soul mates with someone you don’t really know? Can you explain how I just know when he is going to be around? How can you feel so much over so little? But then again, the quality far outweighs the quantity and therein lies the puzzle of Himself. You thought you’d escaped the analysis. Reader, so did I. Someone I once worked with said I was the most perverse girl he’d ever known. He can’t have known many, I say sniffily. But still. Himself likes the perverseness. He is the most perverse man I’ve ever come across.

And just a little thought before I head south - baby, I so would.